Losing a Friend

You chose to walk away when I least expected you would
and you beg me to believe; you would’ve been there if you could

Today you’re one person but tomorrow you’ll be another
personalities so different, have nothing to do with each other

My endless sobbing and the heartache I feel
isn’t for my repenting soul but for you my friend in need

I wish you could see, what nightmare you’ve become
I wish you knew a hand you could hold

It hurts to lose a friend, it gives you the saddest frown
and out of all the people when you bail, it’s like kicking me while im down

I regret believing in you more than anything else I’ll ever do
I wish I could collect back the ache, but you ensure it’ll be done with grace

You’ve given me the most, counting is impossible
smiles, happiness and so much to be grateful for

Guess its me the unthankful one, so im glad im being punished well
what I deserve is on its way, the worst I could imagine in on my plate

I have few beside me, I love them too
so dearly I do, just not as much as you

Only if u could feel it for a day
what you were to me and how you took it away

It’s impossible to understand how much one can change
now seeing the worst I’ve learnt to control the rage

Now I can be better for the one that I love
giving him all from the world, much more than he deserves

But before that theres a game ill play
Where I close my eyes and slowly fade away

Because a part of me still can't believe it's true,
but in this place, I can't understand why did I ever love you.

The Orphan.

The orphan…

Loved like a child, he was raised with pride…

Trained to survive, he was taught to live his life…

Taught to fight the pain, taught to fight his fears,

what a lucky child, his parents always treasured his smile…

Though old he grew and man he was, parents were there for him as a support…

still helping him with each step, the mother who walked him miles in childhood…

respecting him in every sense, the dad who had him spoilt as much as he could…

To them he was still a kid, fed by hand and watched with glee…

with him their life felt complete, to their happiness he was the only seed…

Typically human, he didn’t realize,

his decisions were made but the parents’ thought didn’t coincide…

his moving away wasn’t a moment of bliss, yet his parents never barricaded his independent life...

living in his own house,

lonely he felt day and night…

called his parents to stay over, to stay with him most of the time,

weekend passed, it was time to go, he walked them down the street , help them pass the road

he held their hands and walked them slow, step by step took them to home,

Lonely again he wanted them near, called and urged for them to be here

parents they are, loved his child, thought late night, they came rushing through the miles

On their way, they hit a bus, dad survived but not the mother

though 19 he couldn’t live alone, a father he has but a mother he won’t

nerves all numb
he stood in silence for a while

Standing in the rain, waiting outside the street

Eyes on the road, staring at all moving feet

Would you come back, would you please?!

oh mom I need you bad, would you come back to me.

No Pleasure for Eternity.

You can have all the pleasures in the world

yet none would be serene for eternity

All the love and the hugs from the world you collect, 

but all those love and those hugs in this world itself you leave

Die each day just to learn what it’s like

the hurt from the world wouldn’t coincide

Resentful creature doesn’t have mercy in its veins

it sucks up the last ounces of love you had left inside

You can have all the pleasures in the world

yet none would be serene for eternity

As you grow old in life, it teaches you all that cruelty

what rules are to be followed and what to be left in ambiguity

The paths that are right and then the ones we pursue

never the same yet we crave for the finest fortune

We can still get all that we ask for

yet never live in peace

Because we sure can have all the pleasures in the world

but none could be serene for eternity.

Regretting Pleasure

Green was the garden and sky was blue

with light all around, with love so true

Life was a dream, smiles and bloom

Tender was your touch, your words were never rude

                                 Dancing stars, shined with moon

                                it was a myth, it passed away soon

                              its morning again, and the sun did rise

                             There is light again as I opened my eyes

                                a vague picture I see in front of me

                                 neither blue sky nor the grass is green

A matter of time, for me was a life 

now I wish I never knew what it was like

I wish I Never saw the waves of the oceans

I wish I never felt the beat of your heart

I wish I just lied on your chest, for a sleep that could forever last

but it wasn’t peace that I had found with u

My life searched for more and took me away from u

Eyes were closed in magical world, forced open with pain in veracity

The mystical world I had lived in for a day had given me pleasures that would eternally stay

but the ache my heart feels so bad, makes me repent for the pleasures I’ve had

Life without you...

Will u be alright
would u be okay
If I fell down, if I die some day

Promise me your strong
Even when I’m gone
you’ll hold upon
you’ll live the way I say

Will u be alright
would u be okay
If I had to leave u and go away

Remember the life we lived in a day
Time of our life
All the things we did we say

U don’t wana loose the pleasure inside
Get up and be yourself live again your life

Though m not again beside to hold your hand
Ill be in your dreams inside in your paradise

Will u be alright
would be okay
would u hate me for leaving u one day?

Will u be alright
would u be okay?
Could u forgive me and pray?

For a life of peace
for dignity
for our love to grow in everyway

Doesn’t matter how time flies by
you’re always in me, never out of my sight

No wonder we’re one soul in two wears
we love we play together as we say

Would u be alright
will u be okay
if I hold your hand and promise to stay

I’ll be here now
Forever isn’t cliché
a snitch of a time the month of may
 

If I wana live my life again with u I wana stay

Would u forgive me
would to rise to pray
would u want my tears to fade and be smile of your face

Hold my hands now
be the support I need
be the person I always wanted to be

Will u be alright
would u be okay
If I say I love u in every way

Whispering in ears
loving all those years

Never think of loosing me
never wish me to stay

Let the life be
Alone we’ll never be
All the time my need is; u to be okay

Will u be alright
would u be okay...
If I wanted to live my life another day...

Would you forgive me
are you willing to stay
with a person who loves you
with the one afraid to say

Will you be alright
would you be okay
living in your life with a depressing display

Will u be alright
would u be okay
If I say I love u in every way

Would you be alright
will you be okay
be the reason I need to live a life today!

This is what your life will ever be...

Like it or not this is what your life will ever be

A fire in the ocean

not a bridge above the sea
your life would be pathetic, not comfort with royalty

You’ll dream of skies

stars and things beyond reality
but the truth won’t change, you’re the queen of poverty

It’s in your heart n in your soul

it is indeed carved inside of you
the true existence and the rightful place

my dear you belong to

Convince yourself that the wrong is right
but you won’t ever be ready 

to suffer the atrocious life

Like it or not you’ll have to deal with thee
brutal and vindictive for u it can be

Like it or not it is what your life will ever be...

If Only...

It was losing away…

All I ever had seems to be a trick of the heavens

Just when I realized how much I needed you

I saw them taking you away from me

And only when I could gather myself to scream out loud and call you back

you weren’t anymore in the reach

If only they let my tears fall

I would cry an ocean, many rivers, and seas

But fate had planned much worse for me

a battle to fight until I’m down on my knee

It’s hard to see my inert heart

repent for all the bad memories

None to blame yet all to suffer

The balancing of time...the payment for glee

And only if I could cry a little

I would fill an ocean, many rivers, even seas

If only they let me die in peace

I wouldn’t regret my life with thee…