Losing a Friend

You chose to walk away when I least expected you would
and you beg me to believe; you would’ve been there if you could

Today you’re one person but tomorrow you’ll be another
personalities so different, have nothing to do with each other

My endless sobbing and the heartache I feel
isn’t for my repenting soul but for you my friend in need

I wish you could see, what nightmare you’ve become
I wish you knew a hand you could hold

It hurts to lose a friend, it gives you the saddest frown
and out of all the people when you bail, it’s like kicking me while im down

I regret believing in you more than anything else I’ll ever do
I wish I could collect back the ache, but you ensure it’ll be done with grace

You’ve given me the most, counting is impossible
smiles, happiness and so much to be grateful for

Guess its me the unthankful one, so im glad im being punished well
what I deserve is on its way, the worst I could imagine in on my plate

I have few beside me, I love them too
so dearly I do, just not as much as you

Only if u could feel it for a day
what you were to me and how you took it away

It’s impossible to understand how much one can change
now seeing the worst I’ve learnt to control the rage

Now I can be better for the one that I love
giving him all from the world, much more than he deserves

But before that theres a game ill play
Where I close my eyes and slowly fade away

Because a part of me still can't believe it's true,
but in this place, I can't understand why did I ever love you.

The Orphan.

The orphan…

Loved like a child, he was raised with pride…

Trained to survive, he was taught to live his life…

Taught to fight the pain, taught to fight his fears,

what a lucky child, his parents always treasured his smile…

Though old he grew and man he was, parents were there for him as a support…

still helping him with each step, the mother who walked him miles in childhood…

respecting him in every sense, the dad who had him spoilt as much as he could…

To them he was still a kid, fed by hand and watched with glee…

with him their life felt complete, to their happiness he was the only seed…

Typically human, he didn’t realize,

his decisions were made but the parents’ thought didn’t coincide…

his moving away wasn’t a moment of bliss, yet his parents never barricaded his independent life...

living in his own house,

lonely he felt day and night…

called his parents to stay over, to stay with him most of the time,

weekend passed, it was time to go, he walked them down the street , help them pass the road

he held their hands and walked them slow, step by step took them to home,

Lonely again he wanted them near, called and urged for them to be here

parents they are, loved his child, thought late night, they came rushing through the miles

On their way, they hit a bus, dad survived but not the mother

though 19 he couldn’t live alone, a father he has but a mother he won’t

nerves all numb
he stood in silence for a while

Standing in the rain, waiting outside the street

Eyes on the road, staring at all moving feet

Would you come back, would you please?!

oh mom I need you bad, would you come back to me.

No Pleasure for Eternity.

You can have all the pleasures in the world

yet none would be serene for eternity

All the love and the hugs from the world you collect, 

but all those love and those hugs in this world itself you leave

Die each day just to learn what it’s like

the hurt from the world wouldn’t coincide

Resentful creature doesn’t have mercy in its veins

it sucks up the last ounces of love you had left inside

You can have all the pleasures in the world

yet none would be serene for eternity

As you grow old in life, it teaches you all that cruelty

what rules are to be followed and what to be left in ambiguity

The paths that are right and then the ones we pursue

never the same yet we crave for the finest fortune

We can still get all that we ask for

yet never live in peace

Because we sure can have all the pleasures in the world

but none could be serene for eternity.